Dear Diary,
My mom is no longer with us, but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss her dearly every day, nor does it mean that I won’t celebrate her this Mother’s Day.
First and foremost, she brought me into this world and raised me to be the woman I am today. She was a fighter for years, battling several cancers before finally succumbing to it and for that I’ll forever be amazed. She was easily the strongest woman I’ve ever known.
She was also supportive and loving in other ways that live on with me today. Toward the tail end of her life, she suggested and supported a physical and sexual relationship I have with my dad. She ultimately would begin to question if she had done the right thing, maybe regretting it in the long run, but she also knew that she’d rather have Dad fool around with someone she knew and someone she knew would love him unconditionally versus someone she detested and might have ulterior motives with him and then of course negatively affect their relationship.
Toward the end, as my relationship continued to blossom with Dad, I think she did really resent us as a couple, but again, I think she saw it as the lesser of two evils. Because of her health, she had lost him physically and sexually but held onto him emotionally still which I think was most important for her. I can very easily say that Dad was in love with her up until she passed and still thinks of her and misses her daily. He has since fallen for me which I can only see as touching and sweet, albeit I know also very odd. But what better way to continue to love your wife than to love the closest female to her that is around?
For me this year, Remington and Garrett will be coming over for dinner. Who’s cooking? I actually will be; not because no one won’t for me, but because I want to make my men some fettuccini alfredo entirely from scratch. It’s a meal that everyone enjoys and I love to cook.
Other than that, if the weather cooperates, I think I’d just like to take a nice leisurely stroll on our property and see what I can see as spring begins to bloom here. It’s still awfully cool and I really need the temperatures to go a little higher so that I can wear little to no clothes and truly enjoy nature.
I don’t have many female fans relative to male fans, but regardless, if you’re a mom, please have a happy Mother’s Day and to everyone else, if your mom is around, please wish them a happy Mother’s Day too. And if you’d rather just wish me as your Mommy a happy one, please feel free to do that as well… because Mommy absolutely loves her boys.
Love you,
Mommy Danielle